Just so you know.

Just a quick little message to say I’m not going to be able to post for a few days as have a lot going on and simply don’t have the time but will update asap! Thanks

Chris C.

Story Time.

This post is a little different from others ive recently posted.

My wonderful girlfriend Natasha has been busy writing some i guess you can call them short stories and she sent me one the other day that i really really liked so i thought i would share it with you guys.

If you like this kind of thing and wish to see more please let me know via comments below or send me and email at memyselfandphotography@outlook.com

All comments will be forwarded to my girlfriend and ive persuaded her that if and when she gets a new computer/laptop i would help her start her own blog for her short stories but if you guys like this as much as i do then i shall keep posting then to here until she has her own blog set up properly.

At best, life is the choice between the inside and the outside of a piranha tank.

You either, swim with them and ensure a life time of safety and large meals, or you have the risk of being devoured with an empty stomach and little to be left behind.

You see, everything is about whom you know, no longer what you know. Every cell in your grey matter is alive with sparks brighter than the 4th of July yet you fail to own certain numbers in your phone book thus leaving you, fending for yourself at the bottom of what seems an endless pit, only to find that anything you have ever done was something to waste.

You tell yourself everything will pick up and something will become of your imagination. Someone will finally believe that you are the reason that fish can now walk or that pigs really can fly. Yet you sit in the dull corner of your hotel room, brainstorming ways to make a change, be the difference. Nothing is ever that simple though, letter after letter, idea after disaster. Everything comes to an end.

Then one day, some stranger takes you by the hand and gives you what need. Just like that. Everything spirals out of control and before you know it you’re on top of the world with more digits in your bank account that the first 20 sequences of Pi. You are the person that gave hope back and managed to make it in life.

Then, when you’re off to get your usual at the place that only sells caviar at a minimum of £3000 you see a dull face. Someone who looks as though they have sunk, into a ship wreck and taken his crew with him. You remember being that person and the pain they must be feeling yet you chose to do nothing.

Why? Because…

At best, life is the choice between the inside and the outside of a piranha tank.

You either, swim with them and ensure a life time of safety and large meals, or you have the risk of being devoured with an empty stomach and little to be left behind.

Amazing right? shes the best thing ever and the best thing ever is shes all mine 😀

Thanks very much for reading.

Chris C – MeMyselfAndPhotography

Few Things.

welcome to my newest blog post which will be semi short but sweet.

I hope you are all having or had a great day.

Recently i done a few drawing compilations but currently have no pictures of them (will try get some soon) but i have a picture of my most recent drawing which im really rather happy with.

Please let me know what you think of this as i am quite happy with this one.

if you would like to follow me or contact me through any of the following media sites please do or you can leave a comment down below or send me an email at memyselfandphotography@outlook.com

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Thank you

P.s dont worry i havent forgot about the pictures of my walk around the two lakes from the other day im still working on them and havent even checked the video footage yet as just havent had time!

Chris Coles – MeMyselfAndPhotography

Little Bit Personal.

So anyone that knows me will know I haven’t had a ‘proper’ job for a while and I’ve recently had a chance to get back into work through an agency and of course I shall take it because I need to pay my bills and before any one says scrounger or anything of the sort please kindly fuck off I don’t claim anything and when I did it was only my own tax money that I earnt over the years.

But anyway because it’s been a while I can’t believe I’m writing this but I hope it will help me even if just a little bit, I’m literally petrified about going back to work as I’ve spent so much time at home and avoiding public places other than places I’m super use to and haven’t spent anything on myself other than essential stuff in over a year.

I’m sure everyone if not most people at very least dislike their job but I literally bloody hate warehouse work with a passion.

Sorry whats that your thinking? “Do something else” well trust me I would if I could but I can’t find anything and when I do I’m never good enough, I just feel like I’m not good enough for anything like I’ve had a few good jobs before and I also struggle with new people because I’m just simply so scared all the time and nervous and I know everyone is when they start new jobs but I never change that’s part of the problem. I’ve never really been a morning person. For example at night time I feel awake, alive as such I feel like I can do anything within reason of course. However on the morning and again I know people feel the same but I super struggle with it, I feel so angry and frustrated with everything I physically can’t function I use to be fine when on weekends etc but now it’s all the time and I physically can’t stand it I get like a strange heart sinking feeling but super bad if that makes sence.

All I’ve ever wanted to do is be successful but it just seems so impossible I just feel so stuck, confused, scared and just don’t know what to do anymore.

I won’t go in to too much deep and dark detail but I have considered comitting suicide a few times but we shall leave that as that because I don’t want people thinking I’m attention seeking I’m really not and if you think that then please stop reading this and leave this blog and please don’t return.

I also find that when I’m working I don’t want to do anything after work either because normally a job is around 7 till half 5 and by the time I’m home have dinner it’s time to think about going bed and even if I do something or have time I don’t want to because I’m either seriously grumpy or upset or both and don’t want to do anything because I’ll be tired for work in the morning.

I am aware this all probally sounds really selfish and I understand not everyone will understand where I’m coming from or what I’m trying to say I understand everyone feels the same but I just can’t.

I’ve always said I want to be different to everyone else and I guess I am but I didn’t mean it like this, being depressed and anxious about almost everything.

I’ve always wanted my own business but I don’t know anything about all that and I know there’s places that can help but I don’t even have a proper business plan at least not a realistic one anyway.

I see people on YouTube I.e Roman Atwood or Tom casselle and think I want to be like that or do something cool and different but I can’t even look at my own picture let alone record myself and even if I could I wouldn’t k ow what to do or talk about 😦

All this sounds oh so negative I know but I just don’t know what to do with myself any more I’ve really really had enough.
Like people say oh just get on with it grow up etc. Those sort of people don’t understand and even if I could do that don’t you think I would have by now I mean does anyone really think I enjoy being and feeling like this every single day crying myself to sleep most nights

I’m trying I really am but I just don’t know anymore I know it may be hard for new people to understand because they don’t know me that well but it’s been like this year’s and I’ve literally had enough now and I really feel like I’ve hit a brick wall 😦

I had a possible job 4mobths ago for basically driving cars around the country delivering them which I really really wanted to do and still do but I had to be 23 so as some of you know or should know I turned 23 the other day and called the company and I have applied for the job again bit that’s where the sbout set in. It’s self employed which I’m sure I could figure out but still. Also there’s so many little other bits that I just sbout myself on so much I scare myself to the point of convinceing myself I can’t do it.

I need to change I can’t keep going on like this any longer I want to change I want to be a better person but I don’t know how to.

My girlfriend helps me an awful lot and when we have heart to hearts I feel so freaking bad after wards because I feel I’ve brought someone else down in my problems etc.

Which I know is kind of contradicting myself now as that’s pro ally what I’m doing with this post but yeah I’m trying to explain.

I need something.

Sorry for such a depressing long post but thought might as well give it a shot I’ve nothing to loose right.

Hmmmm

Thanks for reading.
Sorry again.
Chris C – MeMyselfAndPhotography

Unexpected.

Hey everyone!

These last few days since my birthday have been a little poop due to general things going wrong and stressful situations etc.

But recently (Sunday 23rd Aug) morning kinda as me and my girlfriend woke up late due to not getting to sleep until very late the night before, I noticed an event on my Facebook and it was for a jdm meet (japanese car meet) and I have a soft spot for japanese cars as anyone that knows me or even pays attention to previous posts may have picked up on the fact I have a huge passion for cars and everything to do with them. so I decided we was going to go to the meet even though at the time it was raining we was assured it would stop so we took it easy and got ready slowly as I said we got up rather late and sure enough it stopped raining. As you may have observed my car is a german make I quickly confirmed that I would be allowed to attend this meet due to this, they replied saying that any car was welcome which was great.

Anyway we drove over on our own as no one else was ready at the time and wouldn’t have been for a little while, and we had a quick walk round the cars (it was pretty busy) and of course if you have ever been to a car meet such as this one you’ll know you always get the nasty people who are brainless idiots that try to ruin these events for everyone. however they soon saw that no one was giving them the time of day and I got this warm feeling in my stomach that things were going fairly well and so I decided to crack out my camera, which may not sound like a lot to some people in fact most people however I was extremely nervous as there was a lot of people and I was just generally very anxious.

Quick summary of the night, friends arrived I brought some new tint film and bulbs for my lupo (lola) it’s the first thing ive brought myself other than essentials like food and drink for over a year so it felt good even if it was something very inexpensive and small it still made me feel good. I then proceeded to then take a few photos however stupidly I didn’t check my focus properly and a lot of my pictures ended up quite blurry however I shall upload a small album onto this post to show what I did get all be it they’re not fantastic. (SorryNotSorry)

After this we got speaking to an old friend of mine who has a huge american truck. He mentioned to us about a tunnel run in london this bank holiday sunday straight away I though can’t afford it but because my girlfriend wants to go so bad she agreed to help out with fuel and I also have another friend lending me some better wheels for the trip down so its going to happen I hope as I havent been to london in such a long time and I love that place.

If anyone reading this will be in the area or is even attending this event please let me know by leaving a comment or send me a quick email at memyselfandphotography@outlook.com

The only current problem I have is with the headlights I brought I fitted them the sunday night after the meet and on the drive home I noticed the left headlight was shining off to the side quite badly so I will have to look at getting that sorted before we go on bank holiday sunday. hopefully I wont forget to focus and charge my cameras this time!! I’ll also take my GoPro so I can try get some clips of some awesome cars although ive noticed the GoPro isnt overly great at night however should be fine as we will be driving through tunnels. Still havent used the GoPro under water come to think of it im really excited to try it and see what it looks like im just nervous that itll be my luck that it leaks or something!!.

Thanks for taking time out of your day to read this random post its hugely appreciated.

Please leave a like share comment or email.

Thank you

Chris C. – MeMyselfAndPhotography

Have You Ever Noticed…

Have you ever noticed…

was recently I was taking my younger sister to college and as i was driving along past the dealerships in northampton if anyone knows it and around that area i couldnt help but notice how many bloody Audis there was driving around i mean am i missing something was there a sale on ?

Just an observation i made and wanted to ask you guys and girls whats the most common car around where you live or what have you noticed most lately?

Also does anybody else here photography cars, If so what camera do you use i currently use a nikon d3200 as thats the only one i have beside a phone camera and now GoPro.

Let me know in the comments or send me an email at memyselfandphotography@outlook.com

Please like an share this as much as possible so i can improve my quality, quantity of posts and pictures.

Thank you for reading.

Chris C. – MeMyselfAndPhotography

Much Update Many Wow.

Hey!

I am back for an update sorry its been a few days lots has been going on. Now im sure as everyone is aware im not overly great at getting down what I want to say and I have so many things ill probably miss lots of things and expand on other a little too much and blubber on a little so sorry in advance.

But hey im back for another update and as anyone that has been following or knows me personally will know that it was my birthday on Wednesday just gone (19th Aug). I turned 23 and it was a bloody awesome, my mum had to work but my sister and girlfriend had time off work. so I started the day with a bad belly ache due to dancing around like a nutter then ‘shot gunning’ a can of monster, (not recommended especially just after waking up and an empty stomach) but whilst I was fighting my belly ache I opened a couple of my presents that my sister and girlfriend brought me. I got some cool t-shirts and general deodorant and shaving stuffs which was cool but …… my girlfriend had been telling me for at least 2 months that I would love my present and I kept guessing even though I knew she wouldn’t tell me and deep down I didn’t want to know but you know what its like. anyway I opened the main present from her if you like and IT’S A FREAKING GOPRO !!!!! I didn’t know what to do im rubbish at reactions like that so I instantly covered my face and never before to my knowledge have I teared up over a present but I did a little I was so happy and excited because ive wanted one for years and I finally had one.

After this we all got ready and headed down to a local cafe for some lunch taking our time with everything because there simply wasnt a rush for anything. it was a very nice relaxing time and we had some lush food. after this we went back to mine and had a little play with the go pro and the settings etc + got it charged up for later as I knew we was going out for dinner to a pizza hut restaurant that I took her to on one of our first dates.

Now I had a feeling that something was going on as previously two of my friends was joking around saying that they would meet up and have lots of fun without me whilst im out at dinner and of corse I bit the bait and said I will probably be out later for a little bit.

Got all my new clothes on (skinny jeans, t-shirt, socks etc) feeling good set up my go pro in the car and off we went to pizza hut. once we arrived we entered the venue and instantly I felt something was off so I prepared myself as we was walked round the corner I spotted one of my friends sitting at a big long table at the back of the room then I saw the rest of them all sitting there and I was blown away with everything my amazing girlfriend had done for me. It was a great night we had a good time I also filmed a tiny bit whilst we was there.

so anyway after this (baring in mind im skipping out a few parts to try to shorten this story down a little) one of my 2 of my friends decided to stay out for a little and just chill and because we got helium balloons from the restaurant they inhaled them and I filmed their funny voices.

THEN IT HAPPENED……

I was messing around with the GoPro mount on my rear view mirror and took the mirror part off to see better once I had attached the mount better I tried to re fit my rear view mirror part knowing all the time how easily a windscreen could break from fiddling with the rear view. What happened ….. you guessed it my bloody windscreen broke, on my birthday too. But because it was my birthday I was still high on happiness so wasnt too fussed. I took a slower than normal drive home which didn’t do much for the crack as my car is very low and as a result the suspension is rather stiff so the crack got a little bigger on the way home.

The next day I was scratching my head all day about what to do because I didn’t want to go through insurance as I was under the impression I would have lost my no claims however this wasnt the case so I rang up insurance and sorted a replacement for the very next day (friday). which is great and the people who fitted it was very nice and did a good job however that was expensive enough to put me totally out-of-pocket so I currently have no money but I do have a new windscreen even if I did lose my windscreen stickers 😦

It looks a lot different now as it would but im still in the paranoid stage of my windows leaking as its been raining almost two days straight here now, but its holding up just fine.

Shout out to Autoglass (never thought id say that!)

As we skip forward a little ill try keep it a little more brief, again sorry for the blubbering but hey its my first blog im learning okay be nice :D.

It was a nice day on saturday in fact it was rather hot so my and my girlfriend went and took a few pictures near 2 different lakes the first one we went to is like what we like to call our peace ‘get away’ spot where we go when we are stressed out and just need to relax. so as I said we went there first and of course took the go pro also and we took lots of pictures and some video footage which as of right now im not entirely sure if you can upload videos here but I will find out.

Would also like to say sorry as I currently havent edited the pictures or video from when we went to these lakes as of yet but as soon as I get a minute to do so ill post them up here I promise!!

After we were done at this location we met one of our friends for a walk down a more localised lake which was a lovely walk again got some cool pictures and also filmed a very funny MTV cribs spoof funny thins with one of the bird watching houses we found. I also at one point lost my camera lens cap but luckily had only fallen off a few feet behind me. As I said when I have edited some of the pictures I will post them here to explaining them a little maybe and will try get some video onto here if possible.

If you have read this far and fancy being mentioned in my next available blog post and on my instagram then send an email to memyselfandphotography@outlook.com with your best shot of a lake that you have taken yourself. Winner will be replied to via their email to get their instagram name.

If you enjoy reading my blogs please let me know in the comments below or even email me with things I could improve on. should I keep them short or try an elaborate more on them ?

Let me know.

I hope you enjoy thank you very much for reading.

Chris Coles – MeMyselfAndPhotography

Just Quickly.

Just a super quick message to check in basically.

I have a lot to talk about however i currently am struggling to find the time to update properly so keep an eye out i should be on here soon with a good update.

Thanks so much for the support.

Chris C – MeMyselfAndPhotography

Just quickly.

Evening,

Today I was really looking forward to posting a few things all day I was tho king of cool things to talk about and then things started to get out of hand lots of things went wrong and I’ve pretty much literally just sat down from getting up at 7am with an hour and a half sleep.

So if it’s all the same to everyone that actually genuinely reads these I will post content pro ally Thursday due to it being my birthday tomorrow 😀

Thanks to everyone that bothers!

Short But Sweet.

Hello,

just a super quick update as im currently at one of those stages where you have soooo much to talk about you don’t know where to start and if you carry on too long you will end up jabbering on about absolutely nothing for ages, which don’t get me wrong there’s nothing wrong with that and I do it quite often however I just don’t have the energy today as it’s currently 3:44am and I need to get some sleep as I have a few things planned for today.

I have done a few more drawings lately which I am very happy with most of them aren’t totally finished yet however when I have more time I shall take a picture and upload here for everyone to see. I’ve also started to try to colour in one of my drawings with pencil which is probably easy as pie for anyone else however ive just not ever been very good at it, and no I don’t mean I struggle to colour in the lines !!! (LOL)

oooohhhhh I finally decided to install windows 10 today and so far so good I quite like it as it’s not as bad as I was being made to think.

I have so many little things to talk about but I feel like this blog is boring anyone that reads it and no one ever gets to the end so I shall try to keep the topics to a minimum for now until I get better at ‘blogging’.

It’s my birthday tomorrow (19th Aug) I will be 23 years old and im still as excited as I was when I was ten im just better at hiding it now I guess.

Today I have many things to do such as ….. Take the girlfriend to work and my sister to college in Northampton as she has an exam for her apprenticeship, its only going to be around an hour-long so I decided I would stay in the town on my own until she is done. I think I am going to take my Nikon d3200 along and take a walk around the local park and try to get some cool snaps however im not sure as the more I think about it the more anxious I get about being on my own especially with my camera but I will try my best if not for the images for this blog but for myself 🙂

Thank you very much for reading once again.

If you would like to wish me happy birthday then you can do either in the comments or drop me an email at memyselfandphotography@outlook.com.

P.s when I am spell checking this before I post I notice I use the letter ‘I’ an awful lot, is this annoying?

Also im not very good with promoting this blog,using categories etc so if anyone could help me with that 😀

Chris C. – MeMyselfAndPhotography